reasons I'm afraid I might be in love with you

Fear increases your heart rate,

and spikes your blood pressure.

Your breathing becomes rapid,

shallow, and difficult.

Your judgment becomes impaired,

And you don't make good decisions,

or think logically

about your next best move.

Time slows down,

Nothing feels real.

And when in fear...

all you can do

is feel.

But to me, that sounds a lot like love.

Which is fitting, because actually,

that's the biggest fear of mine.

And I wish I knew why.

(I've only had two panic attacks over this ^)

Maybe it's the feeling

of not being in control.

Maybe it's my fear of heights,

and knowing I have to fall.

Maybe I'm insecure,

maybe I'm afraid I can't be loved.

Or maybe it's the opposite,

maybe I can't love someone that much.

But in fact I think it's none of these,

even though I've feared these things before.

In fact I think the reason might be,

that I realized I am in love once more.

Reasons I'm Afraid I Might Be In Love With You

-I can't pinpoint when it happened.

-My friends are convinced that I am.

-There are only two and a half months of high school left.

-You gave me a chance and I didn't take it.

-The last time I talked to you, I did a dance around my kitchen.

-I told my mom about you.

-I've been listening to my stupid playlist for the last 24 hours.

-I am 100% myself around you.

-You listen to me.

-You care.

-I care.

-You've been walking around in the back of my mind for the last three months.

-I was listening to Taylor Swift yesterday, and I saw your face.

-I made this list.

(Which is perhaps, the most important reason of all.)