5.20.2015

love is just a bunch of things I hate

For me, falling in love is like
A tongue twister
You can try and try
And the words still won’t come out right
And the only reason for a tongue twister
Is to make you fool

But love does that too

For me, falling in love is like
Internet Explorer
I’m still waiting for a connection
I'm getting impatient

For me, falling in love is like
Claustrophobia
Thoughts of you are closing in around my heart
And my skin feels too thin--
Like you can see my every heartbeat…
Especially when the racing starts

For me, falling in love is like
Airport security
I’m sending my soul through the scanner
Hoping not to raise any red flags…
As you’re watching my every move
I feel like you can see right through me
And this feels more like airport insecurity--
the way this tile floor feels extremely cold
without my shoes on

For me, falling in love is like
Bad Chinese food.
It’s nauseating.
But I'll admit, I still love Chinese food.
First it was “hey, do you wanna order some takeout?”
And now it’s 3AM and I’m love sick on the bathroom floor
Feeling feverish thinking about good-byes that I’m dreading to say

But I’ll feel better tomorrow

For me, falling in love is like
Running a marathon—I’ve never ran a marathon… 
but I’m two shallow breaths away from an asthma attack
and I keep running because for some reason, 
reaching the finish line is more important than my ability to breathe.

I’m wheezin’

I’m trying to keep up while trying to slow down
I don’t want to tell you how I feel…
I just bought these brand new Nikes
hoping they’d make me “just do it”
but I’ve already got 4 blisters, and I think these shoes are too big.
On the other hand, I noticed that you’re wearing converse--which you keep pristinely white, by the way--and you leave intricate footprints with every step

I’ve never been able to walk with that much perfection


For you, falling in love is also like
Running a marathon—
Except for you, it’s more of a leisurely jog
You’ve done this a thousand times
You’re passing everyone up in this race
You do it without even breaking a sweat

And I’m afraid that means your slow jog
Will always be faster than my sprint

And that my marathons
Are just another walk around your block



5 comments:

  1. This is so beautiful and real. I loved all of it! Not gonna lie, I'm a little bit in love with you and your writing. Not in a weird way haha.
    Thanks for being real.
    It's been a pleasure reading your blog and I hope you continue to post

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  2. I was too busy listening to write down any lines, but holy crap this was good.

    The airport insecurity line. And the tongue twister. And holy crap the INternet Explorer line. "I've never run a marathon." #yes The Nikes and the Converse, holy crap this is a dope poem.

    You're really good at this.

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  3. Seeing you perform this live was unreal. SO MANY SNAPS.

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  4. Dear Maddie,

    Will you please stop by my classroom one last time before you leave forever? I have a piece of paper I need to give you.

    Thank you,
    Kyle Nelson

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  5. I stopped reading your blog because I knew I was getting addicted, but I saw your comment on Jane Adams blog and I had to come back.

    I've missed this. It hit home with every sentence.

    ....my marathons
    Are just another walk around your block

    Yes.

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