the anatomy of a broken heart

It's been 4 months

and just the other day I started having chest pains.

Last December I ordered an autopsy

on this broken heart of mine,

trying to identify where the damage would lie...

Their first findings were the stab wounds

intricately shaped like every word you ever said

and even larger, gaping, gashes for the words you never did.

The word "arrhythmia" escaped their lips

and I knew exactly what caused that:

It was the first time our eyes met...

I'm pretty sure my heart never beat regularly again.

Then they discovered the tear of the atrium.

I think it tore a little more

every time you said my name

or glanced at me from afar

or wrote me back at 3am

or wrapped me in your arms

Next they said "heart attack"--

Not enough oxygen to keep this heart pumping

first impressions

late nights

long distances

making promises

telling lies

the day I found out

time after time you robbed me of my breath,

putting me under cardiac arrest.

(seriously man, not cool--It's bad enough that I have asthma)

"Ventricular Tachycardia"

light-headed (light-minded)

rapid heart beats,

heart palpitations...

it felt like love

but it was just 

miscommunication

They detected high blood pressure,

and found finger prints scarred across the arteries

I was convinced the prints were yours

but the doctor informed me that the person I fell in love with,

is the person you are no more.

It's been 4 months and I just started having chest pains.

But at least it's evidence

that so far my heart still hasn't failed me.

my heart's not failing 

it's just broken.

my heart's not failing

it's just broken.

It's been 4 months.

My heart's not failing.

I'm just having chest pains.