"that was a good day."
"that was a bad day."
"that was the worst day."
It's hard to look back on.
As I turn these pages and skim the photographs, I can see the scars. Maybe they don't look like scars to you, but smiling faces can be the most painful scars you wear when you are hurting. I am not today who I was back then--eyes glowing dim, chest caving in. I don't recognize her anymore.
these were the worst of times.
I tried to see green through the red lights, I tried to see stars through thick foggy nights. Turning pages, wet and dry, turning pages, wet and dry. Thoughts in my head formed scars on my heart. People I once knew faded into the shadows, and I was left on the front line defenseless. I watched as every part of me became a casualty,
But I wore the armor as if I was strong.
Persistence through sadness, I somehow survived. I came out of it wounded, lonely, and broken-- but I came out of it alive.
gunshot wounds, an infected mind,
broken bones, and a broken heart
they healed.
but sometimes the memory still hurts.
"Thoughts in my head formed scars on my heart."
ReplyDeleteThoughts will ruin us, you know?
It's like you caught this feeling like a firefly and put it in a jar. Wonderful. Made me think of this beautifully sad song.
ReplyDeletehttps://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Qp26af-eVhY
"but I came out of it alive.."
ReplyDeleteI feel so much in this. So much ache but so much depth.
Beautiful
5th stanza. Ask of it.
ReplyDeleteThis is so good. Im honestly stunned out of any adequate words to say.
this is everything. This is what i needed. This is perfection. Thank you.
ReplyDeleteHey so AFHS Poetry club and LP creative writing are doing a Summer Slam open mic on August 12th, at 9pm at 746 N 730 E American Fork and we would absolutely love it if you came! You can share a poem or just listen or whatever. It's going to be super cool and a lot of great poets are coming. Savanna Jones will probably get on here soon and attest that it's gonna be cool and that I'm not a crazy person since you don't know me. You are completely welcome to bring anyone with you, especially other writers! That's all, hope you can come!
ReplyDeleteYou can email me with any questions: emmaheath97@gmail.com
"every part of me became a casualty".
ReplyDeletewell done
i wore the armor as if i was strong
ReplyDeletefake it till you make it amiright? ;) haha
you're incredible and i always relate to you.